For those of you who don’t know, I work in the service industry. I have no idea why I do it. It’s the most awful job in the world. I think I do it because that’s sort of what I got my degree in and now I’m stuck. My parents are definitely not proud of me and they make that abundantly clear each and every day. I’m a bartender and a server. I work at two different restaurants for right now although I am thinking about dumping one of them.
I actually like bar tending. The art of it at least. The problem is where I bartend, there is absolutely no creative freedom and everyone wants rum and cokes. I find that boring. Not to mention the tips blow. Where am I going with this… let’s see. So last week I showed up to work completely trashed. I was dropping bottles and breaking glasses, and I almost served people booze who ordered non- alcoholic. Long story short: I got sent home.
I told all of my friends and Rae that I got sent home sick. Which isn’t really all a lie. I actually did have a really bad cold and was stuffed up. Though it is one of the most embarrassing things that has ever happened to me, I am thankful for it. Here is why:
1. It was the rock bottom that I needed.
2. It made me analyze why I did it.
Here is why I did it:
1. My drinking heavily is just a symptom of a much more serious problem. Maybe I’m a little depressed? Probably because I live a lie, and that will take a toll on anyone.
2. I hate that job more than I ever realized.
3. I don’t enjoy my co-workers that much. I’ve worked there for exactly one year and am only friends with one co-worker on facebook. That’s kinda bizarre for the service industry.
4. My boss is always down my back and I wanted to confront him about why he gave my friday night shifts to some homely looking girl.
5. Because I was sick I think I wanted a little numbing. My body ached.
There it is. I think those are all the reasons for the most part. It’s pretty simple.
Today is my first shift back at that place since the incident. I’m a little nervous and embarrassed. I’m dying to see if anyone brings it up or asks me about it. I bet no one will. Except for this one guy Ben who’s a total douche ma goosh. He has a really long pony tail. The end. That’s all you need to know about him. It says it all. I’m sure you are all dying to know what happens tonight so I will update you on my next blog.
So here’s my service industry sidebar for the day:
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